Reciprocation

For LJ as per our conversation on Oct.5/06

Reciprocation

Everything started out fine
Outlook was great
Fine dining, wine
Sparkle and shine
Growing ever closer
It's great to know ya
"Why don't you stay over?"
Reciprocation's not necessary
Just a little appreciation please
Gave up elements of self
To understand you better
Altered my perception
To fit you in a mold
Now to pick those peices up
Is becoming a challenge
Hesitate regularly
Second-guessing doubtfully
These words and images
Are simply that
This picture is only a reflection of you
These words a mirror image
Stir it up
And cause a ripple
Images become temporarily distorted
Nothing ever stays exactly the same
Except love, fundamentally
Darling
I never cared about your faults
Saw them refracted in my eyes
Felt the need to lie
Some big secret you couldn't share
Don't read too deeply
Into this
After all
It's just poetry
It's just a drawing
Would it have been different
If I'd bought you flowers instead?